As one of my few resolutions I have decided to start blogging. I will share this blog with people so they can see what it is like in my daily life. Some may understand, some may not, some may judge and others will compare and see my daily life is sorta like theirs.
A little about me, I am a single mother, of two wonderful children ages 6 & 4 (she turns 4 tomorrow the 2nd) I work full time and deal with my daily struggles but also many blessings. My son is in Kindergarten and my daughter will start pre-k when the new school year comes around. My children are blessed to have many people in their lives who love them dearly, through this blog postings you will hear me discuss my son, his sperm-donor, the sperm-donors wife and their family, as well as my daughter, her father who has raised both my children and his family, as well as my family and close friends. We have a very unique family, but we love our lifes just how it is. I in many ways live a different life then others, but I personally don't think I'd have it any other way.
My sons sperm-donor is called just that because for the first half of his life, the sperm-donor was absent, no-where to be found, and I personally could care less. My son changed my life in many positive ways. When I met my daughters father, he took on my son just as his own, he supported me in any choice I made. Especially the choice that I made when I decided to hunt my sons sperm-donor down and make him start paying child support and become more involved with his biological son. It took me some time to find him, but I did it. Went to court, did the DNA and proved to the sperm-donor and his now wife & family that I infact was very correct, and the sperm-donor unfortunately was indeed his biological father. My son is now 6 and even though I can not stand the sperm-donor, he is improving slowly and becoming more of a father figure.
My daughters father, I was with him since my son was a baby, this year would make 6 years that we were together, but unfortunately it did not work out. He is a great dad, a wonderful role model and does anything for me and our kids. He sees his children regularly and would give him right arm for both of them if he had to. We are on good terms, and I believe we always will be. It wasn't so much a "nasty" split, but it was heart-breaking and I still deal with my choices and his choices every now and then. I miss him sometimes, and wish things were different ( and maybe one day they will be) but right now, we will remain mommy & daddy and continue our lives just as they are.
I live in my own house, with both my children and rent one of my 5 bedrooms to my uncle, who needed somewhere to stay so, I allowed him to move in. I work monday through friday and sometimes wish I didn't have to work as much as I do so that I could spend more time with my children, but life is what it is and I have to do what I need to in order to provide for my two blessings.
Throughout this blog I will try to post daily, I will rant & rave, I will mellow in my depressing days, I will brag about my wonderful days, and I will growl at the challenging days. My reason for this blog really is just to let my real feelings out and not hold anything back, because in the past I've come to realize that holding it all back can only mean one thing, it will eventually explode and come back on me. If you choose to follow, that is awesome, if you choose to just read that's great too. Anything I post is not to offend anyone or anything, but it is to only let the real world know exactly how challenging it is to be a single mom. If I can help some of these young teens choose a different way rather then think a baby will make their life easier or relationship better, then I have achieved something that I've longed to do. If I can help other moms who are in the same situation as I am, then more power to us, AND if I can just make someones boring day just a tad bit more interesting, then YAY that is wonderful. You will notice I will not use names throughout this blog, and very rarely may ever post pictures, only because I do not want anyone to ever try to use this against me.
Until next time,
have a wonderful day.
xoxo
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